Friday was Janet's birthday, so we headed out of town for the day. We both like Manchester, down in southern Vermont, and so this has become our go-to place for close getaways. Mainly, I was taking her there to treat her at Northshire Bookstore, but also to grab a great meal. It was an absolutely lovely time, and we're already talking about what we'll be doing on her birthday in Sicily next year.
Sunday, December 21, 2025
Another Birthday
2025 Readings 114
"You should understand, Mr. Blodget, that one thing I have come to trust is that people find what they are looking for, what they believe on some level that they either need or deserve. I think this is proven moment to moment, so I take it as more than mere happenstance that you are here. I take it as a measure of your will, which honors us and obliges me to be honest."
Blodget looked up from the Tibetan pieces to find the doctor's eyes directly upon him. "Please."
"Well. Something else I've come to trust is that truth is provided in precisely the measure and form appropriate to each of us individually. I find, more over, that the disposition of truth is not, as it may sometimes seem, to withdraw and then appear. That is a function of our concentration. The disposition of truth is to remain constant. That way, when a man chooses to look, directly at whatever happens to be surrounding him - whatever it may be - he will find the truth there waiting. Am I clear?"
Brooks Hansen, The Chess Garden
This morning I finish my latest, I'm guessing my fifth, reading of Brooks Hansen's The Chess Garden. As always, I sobbed. I didn't cry because the ending is sad, although it is in a way, but because of its almost crushing beauty. As I was saying to my great friend Sarah this morning, The Chess Garden is, to me, a remarkably generous gift. I mention Sarah mainly because she's the only person that I've recommended the novel to who has loved it like I do. Seriously, we can't talk about it without getting misty-eyed. Every other person I've recommended it to (and I've dragooned so many people into reading it) have either not finished it or tried to gracefully cover up how mystified they were by my love for the novel. It's on that short list with Dickens's Bleak House or Proust's Remembrance of Things Past or Pessoa's The Book of Disquiet (if that's actually a novel) or Anderson's Winesburg, Ohio for the designation as my favorite novel. I don't know if I completely understand it - or that I'm supposed to understand it - although I also feel that I come a little closer with every reread. Recently I purchased an Emanuel Swedenborg (his life and philosophy play a huge role in the novel) reader, hoping that will give me more tools for my next reread. In the spring I'm going to start my latest reread of Remembrance of Things Past, although this will be my first with the new translation, with the more appropriate title In Search of Lost Time, I recently acquired. My plan was to finish the reread so that I wouldn't feel the pressure to take all seven volumes in my suitcase this summer to Sicily. My logic was much the same with The Chess Garden, especially since my copy is falling to pieces. However, the thought that I would go anyplace without the novel is madness. Obviously, The Chess Garden is remarkably, impossibly highly, recommended, and I'll apologize in advance. I would like to point out that Doctor Uyterhoeven, who is talking to Blodget above, and I share the same birthday. Like Doctor Uyterhoeven, I plan on leaving my cane hanging from the apple tree outside the cabin when I head overseas.
Mike in Madrid
It's funny the pictures that don't make this blog, at least until years after they should have. Here's a picture that I snapped over a decade ago on the Spain/Portugal trip that I led with my friends Mike and Kelly. We disappeared into the streets of Madrid in search of a bar with the NFL package, and, clearly, we succeeded in our quest.
Thursday, December 18, 2025
More CFL Swag
And how did I not post this picture earlier? I'm signed up with all the CFL teams as an insider so I get all sorts of emails from them, including a sweet sale from the Hamilton Tiger-Cats. Sooner I will have jerseys from all CFL teams (not even counting the various and sundry supporting t-shirts and sweatshirts), so I will be empowered to attend any game without identifying myself as a southern continent rube.
Grey Cup Excellence
There was a time when my son and I would be making a Shaw's run on Grey Cup Sunday and we'd make some comment, parodying the mad grocery store rush for Super Bowl Sunday, that everyone must have done their shopping early. And then I began my years-long quest to bring the beauty of the CFL to my friends, although I suspect they might consider it an annual ritualistic dragooning. Now that I've brought nineteen different people to CFL games, in six different Canadian cities, the Grey Cup is a thing. For a couple years my excellent friend Craig would host an annual Grey Cup soiree (one time I drove across the blizzard in a wretched storm to buy a motherlode of TimBits for the game). This year I think an evolving group of folks watched several games together, topped off by Kevin (who, despite his protestations, is a huge CFL fan) hosting a Grey Cup party. It was an Event of Excellence, as one might assume (and not simply because we saw a rouge). The Alouettes are our hometown team, and the Roughriders are not one of my four favorite CFL teams (although after this summer's Saskatchewan/Winnipeg doubleheader I might change my mind), but I was quite happy with the Roughriders victory.
Tuesday, December 16, 2025
2025 Readings 113
If I blew through Octavia Butler's Parable of the Sower in two days, my 113th book dragged itself across the finish line in dribs and drabs after months on my nightstand. This is not a condemnation of Vladimir Nabokov's Lectures on Don Quixote, but rather the recognition that it was not a book designed for a passionate reading marathon. The title of the book describes itself: it is the actual lecture notes that Nabokov prepared for a class he taught on Cervantes's classic. However, Nabokov clearly didn't consider Don Quixote to be a classic, and was dragooned into teaching it. He considered it to be a cruel book, and I think that's an interesting (and in many ways correct) interpretation. Nabokov proposed that Cervantes's talent as a writer and the beauty of Don Quixote as a character made up for a poorly structured novel that mainly seemed designed to cruelly misuse the poor knight errant. I only read Don Quixote in its entirety a couple years ago and really liked it, flying into a minor rage when some wanker on a podcast that Janet likes was telling his listeners that they didn't need to bother reading the novel. I'm not going to agree with the wanker in question or Nabokov, because I definitely think you should read Don Quixote. Still, it was interesting to get Nabokov's very different interpretation, and it inspired me to give Cervantes another read sooner than later.
Christmas 2025 - the Prequel
OK, so Christmas is clearly not here yet, and I don't know exactly what form it will take (we might be down visiting Janet's mom or we might be spending it with Gary and Ali and some combination of her family or we might be spending it blissfully alone). So, I thought I would go ahead and post the beginnings of the celebration.
It's strange to think that next year we'll be celebrating the Christmas season in Sicily. I started doing some research on Christmas traditions in Sicily and I think it's going to be pretty amazing.
2025 Readings 112
Here's another book that's very indicative of this Year of Reading (or, as I sometimes refer to it as: The Years of Reading Stuff I Never Read): Octavia Butler's Parable of the Sower. This was one of the selections from our Unofficial Book Club, which has, from the beginning, taken a science fiction slant (which is fine, because I never read science fiction). I had never read any of Butler's works, so this was a new experience. The fact that I read the entire novel in about two days let's you know that I definitely liked it, and strongly recommend it. The work has a very dystopian feel to it, but it's more about a very easy to perceive natural end of the world. The novel was published in 1993, which means it was written during the Bush 1 presidency and clearly in the shadow of the Reagan years. As horrible as things are at this moment during the Trump nightmare, we should never forget that the foundations of this horrific right wing wet dream were set years ago when the Evangelicals made it clear that theirs was the only path to God and the wealthy and corporate America made it clear that we're all on our own. One member of the UBC said that she found it very difficult to read because of the violence and the unrelenting grimness, but I suggested that it was hard to read because we were living it right now. My copy of the Parable of the Sower came with her Parable of the Talents (which is the second book of what she planned to be a five book series, but, sadly, she died before completing any more - so I guess we'll never know her long-term goal for the series). I'll definitely be tearing into Parable of the Talents early next year, although it will be after the Year of Reading comes to an end, which is why I'm recording my plans now.
Sizzlebrain
During my long life I've usually been the one who established and popularized nicknames, both for my family members and also friends. With that in mind, I suppose it's not surprising that I ended up playing a similar role here in the cabin with the cats. Cici, the little of the two sisters, is not often referred to The Vertical Cat or Nut Job or Two Pounds of Terror (all, clearly, originating with me). Her sister Mollie (or Miss Mollie, as Janet insists on calling her) is alternately referred to as The Horizonal Cat or the Lap Whore or Anvil Head or Sizzlebrain (which is based on her propensity to curl up next to the stove or the chimney, even leaning in with her brain pushed up against a pretty hot surface). Here she is upstairs happily napping against the chimney.
Saturday, December 13, 2025
2025 Readings 111
"Under every dictatorship," he said, "one man, one perfectly ordinary little man who goes on thinking with his own brain is a threat to public order. Tons of printed paper spread the slogans of the regime; thousands of loudspeakers, hundreds of thousands of posters and freely distributed leaflets, whole armies of speakers in all the squares and at all the crossroads, thousands of priests in the pulpit repeat these slogans ad nauseam, to the point of collective stupefaction. But it's sufficient for one little man, just one ordinary, little man to say no, and the whole of that formidable granite order is imperiled."
Ignazio Silone, Bread and Wine
Memory is a strange thing. I have this clear memory of my friend Bill and I sit in the Brannigan Room at our fraternity at Franklin College. We were both reading the same book, Ignazio Silone's Bread and Wine. It my memory I was about a half-hour ahead of Bill, as we pushed to finish the novel. It must have been a requirement in some interdisciplinary class, maybe the only one we ever took together. A side note: it's funny how Champlain always sold our interdisciplinary core as a revolutionary creation when I was taking classes in an interdisciplinary core in the late 1970s (although that's a question for another day). In my memory I finished the book, was disgusted by the ending, and threw the book across the room. A half-hour later, again, in my memory, Bill reached the same conclusion and fired the book across the room as well. Recently, I mentioned this to him during a Zoom chat, and he had absolutely no memory of it at all. So, he could have just forgotten it - or it could have been another friend - or, more likely, it never happened. I mean, this is the same time and place that gave rise to my famous/infamous Halloween Killer story, which has haunted/amused generations of students, but which I always have to admit to them might never have happened either. The last paragraph recounts the almost certain demise of Cristina, the lover, at least potentially, of Pietro Spina/Paolo Spada. She climbs up into the mountains to find Pietro/Paolo, who is fleeing the Fascists. Here is the last paragraph:
Eventually a voice in the distance answered her, but it was not a human voice. It was like the howling of a dog, but it was sharper and more prolonged. Cristina probably recognized it. It was the howl of a wolf. The howl of prey. The summons to other wolves scattered about the mountain. The invitation to the feast. Through the driving snow and the darkness of approaching night Cristina saw a wild beast coming towards her, quickly appearing and disappearing in the dips and rises in the snow. She saw others appear in the distance. She knelt, closed her eyes, and made the sign of the cross.
Obviously, this is extraordinary, a fitting ending and a brilliant metaphor for the anti-Fascist core of the book - and, even more obviously, I was a moron as a freshman in college. Of course, I was already a passionate reader, and very well-read, as the first year moron, and yet I clearly missed the point pretty dramatically. In that sense, I guess it's not particularly surprising that my generally illiterate (not simply culturally, but actually in regards to reading as a basic skill) don't pick up the symbolism in Dostoevsky's Crime and Punishment. Of course, none of this may have ever happened.
What matters is that it's a great novel, and I highly recommend it. Interestingly, I'm planning on using parts of it in my Images of Fascism class this spring. I've just ordered Silone's Fontamara, the first novel of the Abruzzo Trilogy, of which Bread and Wine is the second work.
Friday, December 12, 2025
27
And that the semester is over - and my spring schedule is finalized (inshallah) - I went ahead and posted my number of official days on campus left until retirement. I didn't include any calculations for Finals Week in the spring, mainly because I don't know how my rearranged schedule will translate into finals. Besides, all I do during Finals Week is show a film, give an in-class group analysis of said film, and kibitz with the students. I'm sure there are all sorts of days where I will be required to come up, but good luck on that happening during my last semester. With that in mind, factoring in 14 regular semester weeks in the spring, times two class days a week (even after the change in my schedule, I'm still stacked on Mondays and Thursdays), subtracting a day off for MLK day, I'm down to 27 days left. I've already run off pictures of players with the numbers 26, 25, and 24, because I'm nothing if not prepared.
Out and About
Last Sunday was the last F1 race of the season, and super fan Janet was appropriately saddened. So, I managed to talk her into heading down to the Langdon Street Pub to watch the Vikings game, and partake of many appetizers. While I seriously lament the passing of Smitty's, the bar in Burlington who used to text me on late Sunday mornings to encourage me to come in, letting me know that my seat was waiting for me and that the Vikings were already on that TV (I would waltz in and a switchback and 13 hot wings would magically appear before I had my coat off), Langdon is a pretty fair replacement. An excellent time was had.
Kevin's Happy Day
Every year my excellent friend Kevin takes the day off to celebrate his favorite band, They Might Be Giants. I know I, at one time or another, shared the story of my clumsy They Might Be Giants beginnings with Kevin. Year ago, probably at the Saint John's Club, a group of us were sitting around talking about music. In the process of making a point about the subjective nature of music appreciation (and all art, for that matter), I pointed out that my ex-wife loved They Might Be Giants, but that I had never warmed to them. I did not know that they were Kevin's favorite band, and he was rightly appalled by my philistinism. Almost immediately a They Might Be Giants concert ticket with my name on it showed up - and then another. In an odd way, I think it was actually the true beginning of our friendship. Anyway, every year a radio station in Minnesota holds a They Might Be Giants marathon, with all sorts of cool, appropriately quirky surprises, and Kevin takes the day off to happily listen. He even cancelled out on the weekly Breakfast of Excellence for the occasion. This, as a Tradition of Excellence, clearly trumps the Breakfast of Excellence, and I vouchsafe his decision.
Friday, December 5, 2025
2025 Readings 110
He was sad at heart,
unsettled yet ready, sensing his death.
His fate hovered near, unknowable but certain;
it would soon claim his coffered soul,
part life from limb. Before long
the prince's spirit would spin free from his body.
You know, I suppose I shouldn't actually include works that I read specifically for my Epics book, but I'll make an exception here. I had not read Beowulf in an age, but picked it up again because I was searching for a half-remembered passage that I wanted to include in a chapter. However, after sitting down, I ended up reading the entire epic again. In this case it was Seamus Heaney's verse translation, which wasn't obviously wasn't even in existence when I read Beowulf in college. As to be expected, the things that resonated with me now almost assuredly didn't interest me all those decades ago, and vice-versa. I'm sure the passage above speaks to the end of the year, the end of another semester, the upcoming end of my career, and my rapidly approaching sixty-sixth birthday.
Thursday, December 4, 2025
2025 Readings 109
A couple nights ago I finished Edith Wharton's Ghosts, a collection, not surprisingly, of her ghost stories. I've always loved her novels, but had never really delved into her short fiction, and didn't, to my shame, even know that she was known for her ghost stories. They tended to fall into a very familiar pattern: outside is drawn into a very larger country house which has a spectral past, although I suspect that's more a limitation on the genre than it is Wharton as a writer. I didn't love the collection, but I would still recommend it.
The Human Condition
Last week's Thanksgiving break was dominated by Janet unfortunately coming down with COVID. Happi8ly, it was a mild case, and our trip to Massachusetts to see her mom turned into takeout grilled chicken from Market 32. After laying up for a few days she's now right as rain, although still tires pretty easily (classic COVID). Now I'm the one who feels dreadful, although I've tested negative twice. While Janet slept long hours recovering I launched into the requisite movie marathon, re-watching the entire nine and a half hours of Masaki Kobayashi's The Human Condition trilogy: No Greater Love (1959), Road to Eternity (1959), and A Soldier's Prayer (1961). It's such a pity that the original set of novels of Junpei Gomikawa have never been translated into English. The right wing in Japan hated the novels and the films, and maybe that helps explain why it is under-watched (and obviously under-read) even today.
Wednesday, December 3, 2025
2025 Readings 108
I've been watching a lot of Japanese cinema lately, and not simply all the films in my Japanese film noir class. Anyway, I was thinking of watching my favorite Akira Kurosawa film, Ikiru, again. It's a film that I always want to show in class, but, being a Kurosawa film, it's much too long. It's influenced by Leo Tolstoy's The Death of Ivan Ilyich, which made me realize that I hadn't reread that classic in way too long a time. If you haven't read it (and shame on you if you haven't), it's essentially a novella (especially by Tolstoy standards), and on Audible it was only two and a half hours. It's message, that of a dying man, if only for about fifteen minutes about two hours before he dies, realizing how foolish his life decisions had been. completely still resonates today: "Ivan Ilyich's life had been most simple and most ordinary and therefore most terrible." Highly recommended.
2025 Readings 107
I've finished three different books in the last couple days, which is more impressive than it sounds. As we've discussed, I, like most readers, have several books going at the same time, and this time three just happened to finish up at the same time. I finished the second book in the Dune series, Dune Messiah. The ending redeemed the book a bit, although I don't know if it would inspire me to read any more in the series. I was telling my son that I thought Dune Messiah had too little of what made the first book, Dune, so good: extensive and fascinating world building - and too much of what often dragged down the first book: pretty clumsy dialogue, full of endless self-reflection and doubt. Obviously, it's not as if I'm opposed to the self-reflection, it's just that it was either clumsily delivered or painfully obvious, and tended to drag on. I'll do some research on the next installment and decide if I want to go on or not.
33
We're down to 33, counting this upcoming Finals Week. Actually, as I've pointed out, I'm not certain exactly how many days, mainly because my spring semester is still a little unclear. The number will not jump to lower single digits, however, because the college, after giving it some thought, decided to not buy me out of my last semester. Or maybe they didn't decide not to do so because that would have implied that they actually thought about it. Either way, it looks like my spring schedule is coming closer to coming into focus. The countdown next semester will be more exactly.























